Thursday

Life passes by

How much of what you do in a lifetime
Leaves an impact
Very little, only worth a couple of dime
And thats a fact.
When you look back
To your years of existence 
And really lack
Enough memories 
To be able to fill by counting
The fingers of one hand
Of moments when you achieved
The heart's dream and
When you don't remember 
The things you did 
In the cold winter of december
When you lived as carefree as a kid
When the past seems a blur
And some years in life 
Feel as if you can't tell 
One year from another

You feel the urge today
To make life more meaningful 
Day by day
And to ensure that the cup of life is full
Of experiences many
That leave you feeling peaceful
And if there are regrets any
Don't sit and mull
Make sure you completed
The list you have in your head
Of things you really wanted
So that you can go peacefully to bed

Wednesday

Woodall's

There is always an excitement in moving to a new place and new home. And if the place has a history it makes the experience of living there truly special.

I lived in a 150 year old house in a small town in India. And for once, our home address was really neat: 
Woodall's, 
Longwood, 
Shimla -1

It lacked the house number, lane, colony name and all that is expected from an address.

All old residents told us the story of the house. It had been the home of a British officer and then when India got independence, it became the IG’s bunglow. The opening scene of a hindi movie(Kudrat) featuring Hema Malini and Rajesh Khanna(Indian movie stars) had also been shot in that house. Over time it lost it glamour and it became the residence of ordinary people. It was also split into two houses.

It was a house with large rooms, false ceilings and skylights(that sometimes leaked in the rainy season). The doors were large with brass handles and there were fire places in all rooms. the house had a coal house too.

Its name was an amusement in itself. A sign hung up by some wire on a tree read Woodall's. People assumed(and were probably correct) that it would have been the house of a Mr. Woodall or Col Woodall. But that never seemed to be the correct. Afterall, the other houses were Westwood, Silver Craig, Green Gates, Fair Holme, and I am sure there never existed a Mr. Green Gates or a Col Westwood. The postman over time had names it in its own way, so Woodall's became Woodhall cottage most of the time, and one day it became Budhall cottage.

There was a well at about 5 minutes walk from the house. And it was in the middle of trees away from the road and surrounded by a lot of greenery. Our maid's daughter was once told me that in olden times people used to be hung in that well before India became a free country, and I was aways too scared to go around that place along.

One of the first things that I saw was the dining room cupboard where my mom kept all the crockery. And someone(probably a girl like me) who had lived in the house at some point of time, had signed her name, her school's name and the year on the inner side of the door, and other children who had lived in that house later had done that too. I promptly looked for some chalk and did the same.

All these years, I wondered if anyone had opened the cupboard and seen those marks and followed suit. 

Time

a new leader rises and gives hope

soon time will make him a person who lost

its only time before a child learns to cope

with the perils of the world and its cost

fashions change and bring in a new rage

what is “in” will soon be “out”

with time a young face wrinkles with age

a simple life is now full of doubt

not you nor I will in the end have a say

in the end only time will have its way

Tuesday

Silently

Silently I bit my lip
The words are there in my head
I want to shout but my lips stay still
The words echo in my head instead

I bury them deeper and deeper
And hope that they will be lost forever
But I am their silent keeper
Will they leave me never?

They cloud my thoughts and blind me
I want to speak what I feel out loud
My voice wants to be set free
But my lips move without a sound

Monday

No Going back - A refugee's song

I left my home so long ago

My childhood is a distant memory now,

I get the dreams of my lost home

I want to go back, but how?

I cannot go there now, I cannot go there now.

Its been years since I moved away,

I left as my house burned

I travelled through night and day

To reach a place where I could stay

I had a country and I had a song,

But today, to no place do I belong.

Yesterday I had a dream,

I saw houses, I wanted to scream,

Not one of them was mine, not one of them was mine.

how I wish I could live

in a place and truly belong!